sigh...sprained my leg ytd....damn pain sia...daddy say he will bring me go rub ltr....but i scared pain. lol. haix...why did i sprain my leg? so stupid...lucky alex run up band room help me take ankle guard....thx agn=) ytd until tdy head still pain. sian. ate medcine liao lorh... den i walked under rain too....unlucky la... ytd...she cried. scare me...den i vry pissed off want help her chu qi....but she dunwan tell me anything....haix...how sia? although i already know wad happen, it's like i cant do anything....i feel so useless...tdy first thing in the morning kena slap by daddy. den he go hit my ankle. siao lorh. walao. make me pissed off...

but ytd oso got good things happen la...during ref-up ur frenz tease us.....lol...den i stand so close to you after ref-up..stupid sab still push me....idiot la....walao.....i so damn paisei sia....these few days keep chatting wif shihan. haha. he's so nice lorh....funny max la...at first is only tasha n him...den while stalking tasha i kpokpo go join in..haha...he so nice lorh...wished him gd luck for his o-level. may god bless him. lol.

say want upload the photos ytd bt i too lazy....haven upload yet...teehee....lazy~~~

sian max.
tdy nvr c u at all...
at first vry upsad de.
den ur fb bo post anything.
cnt stalk eu.
stalker here>.<
but u liked my status
den i happy like siaoo.
so wad?
am i happy or sad?

Haha! enjoyed gym & badminton session today. 1/2 hour of gym...run and run and run. haha. 2 hours of badminton..aiming pajiao. hahaha. me n ber so competitive. haha! Shiok la. hope can go play somemore....sian max...no time to play le la..results raped me today. suck. hate exams so freaking much. Arhhhhhh!!!!! dunnoe how tell mom and dad....DIE..Raw!!

Yeah...another perfect view again. I preended to read my book again...But what I was really doing was taking sneak peeks at you. I couldn't hear your voice. I could only see you joking around with your friend. Though you were holding on to your Readers' Digest. Just holding on to it. Without opening the book at all. Not to say read you. Just like me ><! haha.. Although I enjoyed the view, I really envyed your friend. Being able to sit in front of you..like how I always did in the past.  I miss those times so much. Guess you don't. Even if you did, I know it very well that I'm not and will never be the reason. I know that for sure. I saw your ex-girlfriend just now. The one you had when I first crushed on you. Not sure why, it made me think of you. Made me want to see you immediately. But you did not appear. Sigh...

#forgetting you is not as easy as said. cause every single thing reminds me of you.

I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breathe I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.


I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day.
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way. 


I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.

I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start. 

If you only knew how much I love you. If you only appreciated the fact that I'm loving you. If you only accepted my love for you. If you only loved me back. I would never have to miss you anymore. Cause I could see and talk to you every single day just like close friends. And not like how we are now....like strangers...like we never knew each other before. When the fact is that we knew each other since P4. I miss the times when u sat behind me, although we kept getting scolded by our teacher, i was happy because there you were right behind me. I miss those time when you could crack jokes even if it was making fun of my name. At least I knew I was someone in your eyes. I miss those times when I prank sms your phone and you even said you wanted to treat me a cup of milo as long as I told you who I was. I seriously miss all these times and wish it could all replay again. I miss those times when you initiated the chats even if you were just trying to ask the questions tested in our class tests. i miss those times when I could see you playing your favorite sport. I miss those times when I could see you playing in your match. I miss all these times. Every single bit of them. I miss those times when my friends would tease me that you looked at me. I miss the time when you came to watch our band performance. I miss those times when I could hear your voice. I miss I love all these times. These were the happy memories that you gave me. I miss them so freaking much. & I miss the times where I could talk to you without the awkward feeling like now. look into your eyes without blushing. And joking around around with you without thinking of how you think of me. I love you at both times. But apparently we changed so much.

#1 year, 12 months, 365 days, 8760 hours, 525600 minutes, 3153600 seconds, every day, every night and every time, I'm always thinking about you.

whoops. it's 12:10 already.. so late!!
for once, i can play till this late i mean srsly...
i clinched a deal for peiying. okay...not much of a help though but im pretty proud of myself for that coz yeah this is my first time afterall...persuaded so badly.....whoops.
played neopets again cause i really had nothing to do and i was so freaking bored...i know im a small girl in a big girl's body okay? after all, im one of the youngest in class..
kay my eye lids are gettin heavy.. a little while more and dear bed, here i come! kinda wishes i'll dream bout u agn but at the same time not. haix..my dear boy...if py haven't gave that posture to u, i could have clinced another 2 bux!! haix....dunnoe to say u r my bad or good luck charm lah....

#i think i kinda like u.

hey boy, this is sth i wanna tell you and hope that one day i can tell u face to face. I trufully thimnk that after all the things that people say, you know my feelings for you. But I don't really care whether you accept them or not. Like it or not. I love you and that's the truth. You can like other girls for all i care. Cause that's part of your life. And loving you is part of mine. Go ahead and stead with other girls. I will only get jealous and heartbroken. But as long as you are happy, I'm fine. Anyways, I already got so many heartbreaks as gifts from you. I wouldn't really mind as these are nothing to the others. I mean really. Love is not about forcing each other. It's about truly appreciating each other. No matter what you chose to do, remember that someone is right here quietly watching, as wishing you happiness. Lastly, I want to say, I Love You.

#No matter what you do or chose, remember that I would be here quietly wishing you happiness.

hey spammers. nothing better to do izit? everyday only noe how spam "FK U"
want spam no prob. please specify ur name la. dun humji la...how old liao still play this kind of baby games...u all not bored i oso bored larh hor? or ur list of vocab too little only noe what is "fk u"? sorry lor. i noe my english far better than u all. but i dun wish to fuck u tyvm. go check the english dictionary what fuck really means before anyhow typing and spamming. I dun wish to delete anymore. tyvm.

dad dosent really care bout where i go and what i do. so yeah. im going out next week! hope nth spoils my plan!! I'm so stuck at home when mom's at home so now mom is in korea for 1 whole week, my freedom comes rolling along too! well ya. im not gonna do much though. i juz wanna go burn some fats caused by the everyday fast food meals with my friends for the past 2 weeks after exams. I'm so going to burn off my fats!! Perhaps some shopping after school would come rolling in too. but what im more interested in is the batminton sessions we have planed as well as our gym sessions! anyone want to join us? o.o?  yeah anyways, hopefully cca dont come everyday. at least not everyday next week. I really dun wanna spend this week of freedom in school!! I want to go out and play till my heart's happy! Ohya. another thing. hope that the results im getting wouldn't be too bad. (i got raped but a few subjects...). going to tuition soon. (have ended yet..) which means goodbye my dearest com.

So yeah. I'm really crazy now. I think of you when I'm awake. Dream about you when I'm asleep. Crazy or what? On my way to pick my mom from her office to the airport, u are still polluting my mind. Going real crazy. But actually I kinda wish what I dreamt about last night would come true. I know it wouldn't cause it's kinda stupid. As i'm typing this right now, there's a question going through my head.  Am I really loving you or is it just something that I'm used to doing? Cause in that dream of mine, another guy appeared and all of a sudden you dissapeared. Kinda silly right? So this question keeps running through my mind. I'm thinking. Real deeply. I'm really not sure of my feelings for you now...

#Am I really loving you because I'm used to it?

It's only the first day of the early weekend....and i'm missing you so much already. where are you? What are you doing? These questions keep popping inside my brain. yeah u were online an hour ago. but definitely not now. i wish u knew how freaking much i miss you and how freaking much i love you..where are you? *sigh* why am i missing you so badly? haix. Everytime I go online, ive got only 1 wish. for you to talk to me or comment on my post. i just wish you could be right here next to me. but i don't see you. i love you. i miss you. i need you.

#if only you know how much i miss you.

3 days without seeing you. How miserable can I get? Yeah...to you, it's nothing at all. But to me, it's everything.

I'm waiting for you, every second, every minute. Hoping that one fine day you will look at me, you will notice me. Waited and waited, waited for so long. I didn't realise that time past so quickly. 5 years is gone already. But I'm still here waiting. I was just thinking what seemed to be a few minutes ago, whether you would be who I crush on. Whether I should like you or not. I made the wrong choice and stepped into this misery. Once I started liking you, I couldn't let you go. I know you fancy her. Like the way I love you. You obviously do. But at least she gave you chances before leaving you. You never gave me any. Not a single one. Well ya. You broke my heart. Once and again. You tore it into pieces and threw it in the trash. I wish I could stop loving you. Cause it was just a endless wait. I know it very well that your heart wouldn't turn this way. She stole your heart like how you stole mine. And just wouldn't return. But you'll have to one day. For I will forget you. I will one day. It's just the matter of when..But please I'm begging you. When I finally decide to forget, don't ever do anything to make me fall back in love again.

#Why is that when I'm finally getting over you, you give me a reason not to?

A place where secrets are shown and stories are told. A place I know I can cry and laugh as much I want. A place where I leave the cuts he gave to me. A place that collects the pieces of my broken heart. This is my blog. The place where I leave the memories he gave. I want to remember every one of it. Before I totally forget him. I love him a lot. And i know that very well. So yeah. Im putting my cries my laughs, my sorrows and my happies all here. Read if you want to. Shoo if u don't want to. Nobody asked you to come. Nobody invited you here. Whatever you think or say, think through it first. Here is not a place where you can hurt me. Or make the left over pieces of my heart break.

# I love him.

okay, i finally completed my blog n everything. back is aching now. 2 weeks of exams are completed too. now is rest n enjoyment time. at least it is till next mon. sian max. so fast get back results...dunnoe how i did. pretty suckish i guess.. anyways hopfully i cn get results that bring me to the classes i want to go..